Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Abigail has been home for 3 weeks now! I must say, it is MUCH MORE DIFFICULT having 2 babies at home verses just 1! "my hands are full" is an understatement :) Not to mention having one that is quite sick! But it is so much better than her being at the NICU! Aiden is doing well and his apnea spells are getting less and less. Abigail cries alot and has many issues- we go to the cardiologists and GI specialists almost once a week to monitor her heart's swelling and her belly. Since we've been home, they have found blood in her stool twice and had to switch her formula and her meds. There have been several times when we have almost gone to the ER since she has started vomitting and screaming inconsolibly for hours at at time. Each time we've called Children's and Women's and done what they have instructed us to do to help. Please continue to pray for her belly. She is still not having regular stools and we can't seem to find a medicine that works well for her. She is also extremely irritable and having some other symptoms the dr.'s can't figure out. She is pretty upset most of the time which is why I'm so thankful people have been coming over to help me hold her (which can be quite difficult to do while I'm nursing Aiden!)
Overall, life has been very good. The Lord has been so gracious to us over these past 2 1/2 months. He has granted us supernatural strength and preseverance when our bodies should have given out weeks ago! He has given us supernatural wisdom and insight when we needed to make critical decisions for her. I have had so much joy in being a mommy! It is so obvious it is what we as women are created to do! It is so much fun just loving on them. I have been overwhelmed by the compassion and generosity of others. My friends and church family have served me in so many ways- meals, their time, cleaning my house, holding babies, the list is endless. I'm overwhlemed with gratitude. One of the reasons we are doing so well is through the prayers and help so many have offered to us. Thank you Lord for the body of Christ! So many have truly placed my need above their own.
The Lord has also been showing me how committed he is to me by walking us through this extremely difficult season. He is stripping away things both in myself and in Ben to make us more like himself. Although this is a painful process- it is well worth it for He only wants to free us from our sin and shame. My prayer is that I would have eyes to continue to see why He is taking us through the fire and what he is trying to cleanse me from.
"I lift my eyes up to the hills, from where my help comes from ...my help comes from the Lord"