Wednesday, September 3, 2008

I started fertility shots last Monday. I thought I would just be taking a pill (usual first step in fertility), but my doctor said that wouldn’t work for me and I needed something more aggressive. The decision to start them was very overwhelming. I was supposed to start last week, and I just couldn’t bring myself to do it. There are so many hidden reasons beneath the outward resistance. What if they don’t work?…that’s my last hope…How will I respond emotionally? Am I ready to engage in this emotional rollercoaster, fully embracing my desire and disappointment at exactly the same time? I was terrified…wanted to figure it all out…wait until I felt like I could handle it...while at the same time feeling "behind" and watching everyone around me get pregnant. I was encouraged by a great friend (thanks JenJ) to get away, pray, and not leave until I felt a peace one way or the other. The Lord wants me to walk in faith and dependence on him every single day, and he has made this an overwhelming reality for me. As we got out all the syringes, gauze, serum, ect. reality sunk in even deeper that this will be an extremely difficult process. A million questions run through your head. What is God’s purpose in this? How will He use all my battles with health for His glory?

Yet, in the midst of my questions, God has given peace. The Lord has granted me the sweetest intimacy with him and peace leaning on him moment by moment. He wants me to know Him in a way that only trials could lead to. He is making my faith more real and genuine, and my hope rests in the fact that he has a plan for my life. I know he will use my tears to bring comfort into the lives of others he calls to walk this path.
Please pray for us as these next couple of days are critical ones. Please pray that the shots work, that my body responds, and that the Lord would open my womb. Thank you

Monday, September 1, 2008

Spring 2008- Easter, Ashley's wedding, Cinco de Mayo and more!

ATL- Spring 08

Fall 2007

My sister's wedding 9/1/07, end SBP 07


So I am officially 1 year to the day late in doing anything with these pictures. However, I am successfully using my labor day/Gustav weekend to catch up!
I'm just now getting all my pictures organized from the last year- These are some of my favorites!